in the middle of nothing, out of the blue my life went to pieces.
it was all about love, all about connecting, swinging and flying together.
and after years of trying many times - different ladies, same old story -
I finally had this ultimate feeling of having found my love: the one and only I could connect,
I could show my true self, make a beautiful room for her in my inner space,
the one who thrilled me and where she and me would be floating guided by true love.
well, that was how I felt:

feels right now as if the day would be near, where the world around me would
stay in this absolutely silent state of complete alienation. and i do still hope
that it will never happen, that i will always be guided by the sweet sound of
music. my heart shall never die and my spirit will continue to unfold and
send lightbeams to the universe. until then i will dream on, come closer to
myself and connect with those who are alike and kindred spirits. in this way
true love will hit me in the end. or else i shall perish like a fool.

... if she goes i will surely die. if i go i will surely die. better, or not?
i love her, but she's gone. i try to love me. salvation, please!
o universe can you hear me?